Deuteronomy 32:2 May my teaching drop like the rain, like gentle rain on grass,
This week was Jeff’s week at the hospital on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday while I stayed home to teach the children and will work on Tuesday and Thursday. There is not much to report. The kids worked a fair amount today and should be done with their main curriculum this week, leaving only a few things to finish up next week in Social Studies and Science. After school the kids went outside and played most of the afternoon with their friends, while I took advantage of applying for several different jobs. I now have over 10 applications out there. I know God has a plan for what is to come in the future for our family, but I would really appreciate a bit of insight into his path. I know it will come with time, but I will admit that I am getting a bit impatient!
We sat down to dinner this evening and even after 10 years I still can’t figure out why David takes so long to eat his food. Tonight he took just over an hour to eat and because he was not just the last one to eat, but was actually still eating (and talking) after I had cleaned the kitchen and Jeff had taken out the garbage, David was left to take his plate with the food remains outside to the garbage and do it alone. He did not like this one bit because he tends to get scared about being outside by himself, but this was an opportunity for me to show him why taking this long to eat was not working.
I was hoping that he would learn the lesson and then just move on, but I was wrong. Maybe because it was 8:30 at night, or maybe he just bypassed the lesson because he was so upset that I made him throw his food out in the garbage can outside, in the dark, but whatever the reason it backfired on me. Instead of him coming in saying, “I don’t want to do that again”, he came inside almost in tears and then proceeded to not go to bed and flop around on the floor until the wee hours of the night.
As I reflect back on this evening and this scripture I am pretty sure that my teachings today did not go this way. I am not sure David experienced new growth. I guess time will tell, but I feel like tonight just eroded away some of his self-confidence (or maybe that is him playing me, again). I pray that God will guide my discipline and guidance for my children so that the lessons I attempt to teach them will actually stick! I think one of the hardest things as a parent, at least for me, is to not know whether your actions really make a difference in your children’s behaviors. It is like a delayed reaction because even if the lesson did spark new growth in your child, you are not likely to see the new growth for some time; it is definitely not an instant gratification and requires a lot of patience.