1 Timothy 1:12-17 I am grateful to Christ Jesus our Lord, who has strengthened me, because he judged me faithful and appointed me to his service, even though I was formerly a blasphemer, a persecutor, and a man of violence. But I received mercy because I had acted ignorantly in unbelief, and the grace of our Lord overflowed for me with the faith and love that are in Christ Jesus. The saying is sure and worthy of full acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the foremost. But for that very reason I received mercy, so that in me, as the foremost, Jesus Christ might display the utmost patience, making me an example to those who would come to believe in him for eternal life. To the King of the ages, immortal, invisible, the only God, be honor and glory forever and ever. Amen.
The peace I felt today was overwhelming. Maybe it was the many prayers over the last week or it was an actually good night sleep because Lucia did not come wake us up. But whatever the reason I was forever grateful at the peace and calm feeling I had when I woke up this morning. I felt rested and content. I got up, did some yoga, made my smoothie and headed off to the hospital enjoying my peaceful walk through the city of Brasov. Despite the difficulty of this shift (lots of crying, some even screaming and jumping up and down in their beds, when we left their rooms) I felt rejuvenated in what God wants me to do. He wants me to be in the present and give all that I have to these beautiful children in the hospital and at home. I had a strong need to spend some fun time with my children this afternoon, so I asked if they would please be done with their schoolwork by the time I got home. Unfortunately this didn’t happen, but my mood was not wavering. I was able to hang out at the house while the kids played outside. And though I wanted to spend time with them, they were so happy to be with their friends that I didn’t want to disrupt their enjoyment. Anjali was invited to the Youth Group at the church we have been attending and was given a ride to and from the meeting tonight. We had a plan of hamburgers for dinner, but our meat had gone bad during the course of the week. So once Anjali left for her youth group we all made the long walk down to The Addiction, a restaurant right at the bottom of our stairs, for dinner.
Our dinner, while I really missed Anjali, was wonderful. The food was so good and the company of David and Lucia was so fun. The food and the service was spectacular and we all thoroughly enjoyed our respective evenings. We got home just in time for Anjali and then everyone went to bed, even Jeff and I (we both have been so tired and I think we really needed the extra sleep).
I am so grateful for the peace and contentment given to me today by God grace. He has continued to provide for me at every step of the way, I just can’t understand why it is so hard for my heart to let go of this desire to control our future plans. But for today I will enjoy and relish in the peace given to me and continue to pray for it every day moving forward.