Thursday March 7, 2019

Matthew 6:25-34 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air; they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And can any of you by worrying add a single hour to your span of life? And why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not clothed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What will we eat?’ or ‘What will we drink?’ or ‘What will we wear?’ For it is the Gentiles who strive for all these things; and indeed your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But strive first for the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. “So do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring worries of its own. Today’s trouble is enough for today.

Today I had my second shift at the hospital and it was very much the same as yesterday: deliver diapers, change diapers, love and snuggle babies, and then listen to them cry as we walked out of the room–so joyful and yet so heartbreaking.

While I was at the hospital, Jeff and the kids were manning the office adjacent to the hospital making baby bundles (bags of clothing for parents staying with their children at the hospital) and hygiene bags. The plan for now is the kids will be at the office working on the baby bundles and then sorting donations on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays. Jeff said that the kids did really well and were even able to work in some school work into the mix, though they still have more bundles to create.

After we all finished our volunteer work for the day, we walked over to the store for some groceries for dinner. I must say, I really do despise going to the grocery store with all three of my children–they are usually getting in people’s way because they are not paying attention or they are fighting over some mundane reason like pushing the shopping cart. I am sure that every parent has to deal with these same issues, but I still can’t stand it. I don’t understand why as soon as we walk into a grocery store they lose their minds. I have so much trouble minding them and trying to figure out what we still need to get. Well after a bit of time we finished our shopping and made the short trek home. The kids were supposed to do a bit more school, but I needed them outside, so they proceeded to play with their new friends downstairs for the next 2 hours before coming in for dinner. It was a wonderful afternoon (after the debacle at the grocery store). God always has a way of turning a really frustrating afternoon into a wonderful evening.

In regards to the scripture, it came at just the right time. I have started to search for new jobs and both Jeff and I are trying to figure out where I am supposed to be after this year is up. I still have a hard time letting go of my desire to control this and leaving it up to Him. I still worry and stress about it. I am so thankful for this scripture today because it is a wonderful reminder to hand over our worries to the one person that actually handle it. I don’t know where we are supposed to be after this year, but I need to be reminded to have faith that He will lead us and guide us, we just have to listen and be open to His call and most importantly we need to be patient. It is just so hard to be patient and to relinquish this control. But what I find most entertaining is my reflections on this very topic. I have such a hard time letting go and allowing Him to be in control (I want to plan my life out so I know what is next), but every time I do that it doesn’t work out–His plans always work out, not mine. I know this in my heart, but it is just sometimes difficult to drag my mind along with it. Scripture passages like this one really help put a different perspective on it and allows me another opportunity to practice giving it all over to Him.

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