John 4:19-20 In a little while the world will no longer see me, but you will see me; because I live, you also will live. On that day you will know that I am in my Father, and you in me, and I in you.\
I worked at the hospital again today and I must say today was a bit more difficult. The reality of the situation was more apparent and hit me a little stronger. We handed out diapers for the weekend to the nurses for the children that would otherwise not have them, 12 diapers for Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. I don’t know why this was so difficult for me, since that was the same amount we had been given out during the week, but for some reason the reality of 12 diaper changes over a 3 day period was just a bit more difficult to swallow. The reality of the situation was both heartbreaking, but also gratifying because it is very apparent that without FFR doing the work they are doing, these children would be getting far worse care. I don’t blame the staff of the hospital because from what I can tell, there are just too many children left there for the nursing staff to provide the care the parents should be doing and since the hospital does not provide diapers or clothing to these children that are just dropped off, FFR plays a very important role in making sure they receive some very basic care. Now to compound this issue even further, there are definitely parents who do not wish to abandon their children either, though there are these situations too. There are most certainly parents who are just unable to stay at the hospital with their children for varying reasons (they need to work, they have other children at home that need them, etc.). The situation is so convoluted and therefore blame is not the answer. I am so grateful that God has placed us here to work with these children and to provide them the love that their families are either unable or unwilling too. I know that these next few months will be hard emotionally, but I would not trade it for anything in the world. These children deserve to be loved and that is why we are here; the hard part is going to be when we have to leave, but I know that God is working hard here and that He is making sure these children are cared for at the most basic level.
On a totally different note, it was such a beautiful day. It was 60 F outside with the sun shining brightly and I just loved walking outside with a pair of jeans and a t-shirt. As I walked to the hospital this morning I couldn’t help but wonder why I was getting so many people turning to stare at me. I didn’t think I stood out that much! But come to find out Romanians tend to wear jackets, coats, and hats until it gets much warmer (70-80 F) and so I was getting weird looks from people because of my attire (or lack thereof). I thought this was hysterical because there is no way you would catch me wearing a jacket or sweatshirt and hat when it is 60 F and sunny outside, I’d melt!
Jeff was home with the kids today trying to get some school work done and while Lucia did a great job today, by the time I got home Jeff was so discouraged. The older two kids are so against us teaching them or just doing the work in general that it really makes this process almost miserable. It is so hard to see our children not putting any effort and energy into their education. I knew that homeschooling them for this year would be difficult, but I really didn’t think that our kids would jeopardize their education just to prove the point that they didn’t want us to teach them. The rest of the afternoon was quite trying for both of us because we listened again to the kids apologize for their behavior and again promise to do better, but in the end nothing changes. Both Jeff and I are at a loss for how to handle this because in the end, we can’t force them to do the work. We can assign it, teach it, and ask (even tell) them to complete it, but in the end it is up to them whether or not they follow through and learn. I can see where this is headed too…Anjali’s only concern about this trip is that she will fall behind in her education. So we met with her teachers and the principal to make sure that we were going to teach what she would be learning back at school. Her educators all told us (and her) that this year would not put her behind in any way, but rather she would gain so much more than her peers because of the experiences she will have. Unfortunately, she seems to sabotaging her experience and her education just to prove a point. I can already hear her yelling at us because she is behind in school or not where she wants to be and it is all because of this trip. She is failing to see that both Jeff and I are trying our very best to give them the best possible education, but they are just refusing to work with us. David is a bit different, he just doesn’t want to do the work. I will say that Lucia is the only one who has taken her education with us seriously and it shows. She has completed her Kindergarten curriculum and is already half-way through the 1st grade curriculum. I understand that she has the advantage of never going to school and then having to make this transition, but I just really thought Anjali and David would be up for the challenge and for trying something new. I know that in the end they will be just fine, it just is disheartening that they are throwing away an opportunity to learn just because it is their parents teaching them.